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( truth is... furina was scared, worried that she couldn't find the solution to that looming terror. it did hurt to know the option used, but she would have never understood why time wasn't on her side. yes, neuvillette asked over and over again, but she couldn't explain. of course, the masses had doubted her, but she was trying so very hard to be the archon they saw her as.

and the people she trusted, those that she cared for had created a ploy against her. sometimes she thinks about it, and she reminds herself it wasn't out of ill-will, but still, she's sensitive, she still had feelings despite the immortal body at the time, and sometimes she wishes she could fret over those feelings than the ones where she knows that she will lose the traveler.

part of her wishes that his answer were more cruel, something she can reflect on, replace her sadness with something else to think about. however, the other is always so sweet, so honest, and despite her misgivings he's able to say something like this.

furina thinks she's going to miss him. she knows she will miss him so much, so, so much that death isn't as scary, but the thought of losing him feels worse. )

I am glad you understand how strong I was! I wouldn't have wanted to be anything less to you.

( why couldn't he have said something cruel, why couldn't he think less of her? this feeling in her chest that swells so tight that she might just choke... it never dislodges itself, remaining in place, and furina takes a deep breath. )

"To live is to suffer, to survive is to find some meaning in the suffering."

( and she did find him. )

[At times he wishes he could control his own emotions better, that he could care less about everything and everyone around him. But that would've been wrong. He's grown to love this world and its people, he's grown to cherish each and every companion that aided him in his journey, no matter how briefly.

And Furina... She's so special to him right now that it hurts to think that one day he'll wake up and realize that she's nothing else but a memory nested deep in his heart. That they will not be able to see each other again, that he won't see her smile, her eyes, hear her voice.

All things must come to an end, he reminds himself.]

You will always be strong in my mind. But I wish that you won't have to suffer ever again. That you will only find happiness from now on.

[But can life truly be that kind to someone?]

( he really is too kind to her, more than most, and furina only chuckles as she figures that honesty probably isn't the best policy now. there's nothing aether has to say about this, he cares for many people and has kept up a decent relationship with those he knows.

the last thing she wants to be is a trauma on his mind when her time comes. )

Don't worry, I'm happy. Even though the past was a rocky start, and no matter how upset I was...

( it led to something between them and that's why she can't be entirely saddened by the outcome. )

Things are different now. Believe me, you're taking me out to find treasure, I can't say I expected that back then.

That's good.

[He believes every word and doesn't suspect anything else. He can't have any hopes that he could hold her hand, be with her, stay by her side always.

But they can share adventures, make memories together. And then he will look back at those and he will smile.

And cry. His heart will cry with regret. But that's for his future self to worry about. Right now, he wants to enjoy the moment.]

You're right. Things are different now... And I'm sorry for what happened back then. I'll take you on many more treasure hunts from now on. It'll be so much fun.

Don't apologize.

( perhaps she wanted that apology, perhaps she only wanted to tell him and no one else. she really didn't want to look like a liar in front of these people, and it was difficult to handle the expressions and doubts. at that moment, she never felt so alone. )

Do I really deserve it after all I had done? Actually, don't answer that.

( failed, over and over again.

it's why she's able to move the discussion because she knows what it is he might say. )

When were you leaving?

[Where she sees failure, he sees persistence. After all, it's all thanks to Furina that Focalors' plan was a success.

But she doesn't want him to answer, so he doesn't. He moves on.]

We can leave whenever you like. I'll be waiting at Cafe Lutece.

Alright, I'll be there soon. Don't miss me too much.

( that as her final message considering she needs to figure out what she wants to bring, what she should bring... )

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are you sure they seem like theyre living their best lives to me

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