[He takes a deep breath in and out, bracing for whatever kind of reaction Heizou is going to have. But to his surprise the other already knew.
...No, maybe this shouldn't be surprising at all. Heizou is a great detective. Figuring something like this out wouldn't be difficult to him.]
I told you because... I want to be honest with you. I trust you.
[It's the first time he's ever wanted to be this honest with anyone, to give his heart to the other person fully, hoping that Heizou would understand him.]
But it also wouldn't be fair if I kept this a secret from you... It would only hurt both of us in the end.
[He wants to be at Heizou's side. Always, for as long as he's allowed. So hiding this kind of crucial information from him would be like a betrayal and that's the last thing Aether wants to do. Heizou deserves the best.]
[Without raising his gaze, Heizou slowly leans forward until their foreheads are touching. Aether trusts him. And frankly, Heizou trusts Aether - absolutely and without question. But--]
But being with me... It would be so much harder on you.
[He'd have to watch Heizou get older and older, day after day, year after year. And ultimately Heizou's time would come to an end, and Aether would be left alone again. A slow, quiet suffering that neither of them could do anything about. Though that's even assuming that their feelings for each other are strong enough to last that long...]
How could someone like me possibly be worth all that?
[Heizou is right. It would be so much harder on Aether, but the traveler knows it's all worth it... because Heizou is worth everything in the world.
Aether shifts a little bit, tiptoeing so he can place a tiny kiss to his companion's forehead. A gentle, careful affection that speaks of his dedication. His heart made a decision long time ago and it will forever belong to the man in front of him. Nothing would ever change that.]
You mean everything to me.
[His voice is like a soft whisper, his eyes shine when he says that. And he grasps both of Heizou's hands into his own and presses them against his chest, where the glowing mark is, where his heart beats fast against his ribs.]
My heart belongs to you. If I kept quiet about it, if I never told you my feelings I know I would regret it for the rest of my days.
[And that's such a long time. Hundreds, maybe thousands of years of agonizing over love that remained hidden till the very end.]
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...No, maybe this shouldn't be surprising at all. Heizou is a great detective. Figuring something like this out wouldn't be difficult to him.]
I told you because... I want to be honest with you. I trust you.
[It's the first time he's ever wanted to be this honest with anyone, to give his heart to the other person fully, hoping that Heizou would understand him.]
But it also wouldn't be fair if I kept this a secret from you... It would only hurt both of us in the end.
[He wants to be at Heizou's side. Always, for as long as he's allowed. So hiding this kind of crucial information from him would be like a betrayal and that's the last thing Aether wants to do. Heizou deserves the best.]
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But being with me... It would be so much harder on you.
[He'd have to watch Heizou get older and older, day after day, year after year. And ultimately Heizou's time would come to an end, and Aether would be left alone again. A slow, quiet suffering that neither of them could do anything about. Though that's even assuming that their feelings for each other are strong enough to last that long...]
How could someone like me possibly be worth all that?
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Aether shifts a little bit, tiptoeing so he can place a tiny kiss to his companion's forehead. A gentle, careful affection that speaks of his dedication. His heart made a decision long time ago and it will forever belong to the man in front of him. Nothing would ever change that.]
You mean everything to me.
[His voice is like a soft whisper, his eyes shine when he says that. And he grasps both of Heizou's hands into his own and presses them against his chest, where the glowing mark is, where his heart beats fast against his ribs.]
My heart belongs to you. If I kept quiet about it, if I never told you my feelings I know I would regret it for the rest of my days.
[And that's such a long time. Hundreds, maybe thousands of years of agonizing over love that remained hidden till the very end.]